12:59 Way Past my Bedtime.

Giving out my blog address always makes me a little more wary to post what I'm thinking. I know you're reading it, and quite honestly, I don't really want you that deep into my personal life. But lessong 27 in life has always been to be who I am regardless of what others will think.

I have learned a lot about the past week:


1. I do not like bottled water, but it makes staying hydrated so much easier.

2. I am good with animals. Especially my brother's cat, who missed me when I was gone for two __days. I've lived here less than a week.

3. I have a lingerie fetish.

4. I turn people into objects when I feel like I am going to get hurt by them.

5. Skittles do not make me happy.

6. Neither does shopping, it just makes me broke.

7. I often take on way more than I can handle, get bored and drop 24 % of it, confused on 40%, __and wind up doing 36% of it on my own.

8. It is when I am most free to express myself that I make the most mistakes.

9. I am not struggling with Christianity, merely having a hard time living truthfully.

10. I like pain, except for when it is too much to bear.

So when the tempermental beauty has faded with the ignorance, and truth comes to surface, do the fleeting moments really make up for the mess I'm in when it's all said and done? Or is this life really just as empty as the hollow I find staring back from the mirror?

What is Truth?

I'm looking at it,

Wanting it

Yet know too well what it entails.

Am I ready?

Though my soul yearns for poetry, for magick,

Gray and Hollow

I remain.

Little Somethings

For about a year now I've been experiencing with photography. Though I don't have any good editing software yet, I have had a lot of fun taking pictures of random things.



For instance, this chair I found lurking around my old college dorm. I kidnapped the thing and drove till I found a creek I could get to. I also had some very pretty orange/red apples that went well with the chair and discovered the old gear in the creek bed.


The apples i just left there for the deer to eat. I'm sure they appreciated the snack.



Oh ya, I also brought with me a chalice and some other props. These all came home with me as well, I didnt think the deer would be needing them. I got the chalice at the Scottish Highland games in Woodland, CA. VERY FUN! I reccomend the experience to anyone with an interest, or just a family looking for some educational fun for their children.


A reflection of the chair.

Below is the complete picture of all that I had out with me that day.

Starting Anew

Recently, I have been given a rundown trailor that needs alot of work done to it. The floors need new linoleum; the walls: painting, and the rest of the house, refurnished complete with new bathroom and kitchen. There is no kitchen, and the bathroom works but needs to be redone. The adventure is something I am looking forward to. And the help from family and friends will make it an enjoyable experience.